I missed being happy and being with this bunch of people. I am there, but i am just no longer a part of them. I was so suffocated. I tried, i tried really hard. I feel like i’m running into a wall that doesn’t budge; the wall that sets us apart. Then i realised perhaps we’ve all changed or maybe it’s just the reality that there are some things we can never overcome in life. It’s been like this for a while now. And i guess i’ve chosen the alternative. This bunch of people used to be everything i had and one day, i just lost all of them. I don’t want to go through this a second time. I’m still having a difficult time trying to adjust to being alone but i guess i’ll get used to it sooner or later. I’m not going to lie about it. I’m not happy. And i don’t think i will be any happier in the future. But this is the best i can do. Afterall, i’ve been abandoned. I am just an option to all of you. An option that is always left behind…